Shit, guys. It's been forever. A year, I think. Little things have changed, I guess.

First of all, all that "I'm in love," stuff was total bullshit. I honestly don't know what I was thinking.

My YouTube account isn't something I would call active. I'm only on it to listen to music, I never upload anymore.

I'm finally going into High School. I'm a little bit nervous because the design of the school is pretty confusing. I'm probably going to get lost a lot, LOL. I'm also not looking forward to being a freshman because I heard that the older kids give you false directions so you're late for class or some shit. I have plenty goals for ninth grade, though. I want to make new friends because a lot of the friends I have aren't that great, to be completely honest. Besides my homeroom buddies, I love them(: I also want to find a boyfriend, since I've been hooked on this same guy for almost three years now. I had four opportunities to be in a relationship during eighth grade, but I turned them all down. I really need to pick myself up this year, too. I was so close to failing the eighth grade . . . I slacked off way too much. I CANNOT do that this year. High School is important, I'm not a little kid anymore. I'm also going to try to stay as confident as I can. I wasn't confident in myself in Middle School. You see, I'm pretty different from the girls around here. The majority of these girls are, well, fake. They try way too hard. But anyways, like I said, I'm different. I was always so insecure because I compared myself to those girls often, and it was a problem. A lot of stuff was going on, and the fact that I was insecure contributed to that. I had heard a lot about self harm around that time and I kept thinking and thinking about it until it was done. It became a habit, and happened again and again. Now I'm in therapy, and haven't done it in months. Since school ended, my confidence has been returning slowly. I want to stay confident in High School, and that's what I'ma do >:3